Assalamualaikum earthlings got nothing to do when I'm stucked between two good things. Two good options. What's more, related to my future. How I wish everything going on smoothly .... indeed, it wasn't turn out as I want to. As aku rasa tak menentu now sebab kena pilih antara dua which both ada pros and cons - scared me enough. But as we know, every single thing ada pros and cons kan so adil la sama sama rase. Eh? Berleter panjang tapi tak state lagi aku punya masalah sorry tapi before tu aku bukan nak share kat satu dunia aku punya masalah, just reduce kan sikit beban di hati.
First and the foremost, the problem is - which one I should further? Degree of Food Biotechnology or Degree Architecture? These two good things really messed me up freaking me out the most. Since results semua dah keluar, aku tak rasa tenang selagi tak pilih which one pilihan hati.
First scene
Act aku ni ex student asasi kat satu uni and what I've went through are all about science - Tons of tutorials lotsa quizes at the end of the week and papers berlambak. Macam aku spm dulu, takdelah gempak pun belajar cukup makan je. Kononnye kat uni nak redeem balik silap aku time spm dulu dalam science streaming - at last : HAMBAR. The conclusion is - science is too mainstream buat lazy-bum macam aku ni. So after result final keluar, serious cukup makan je sambung degree. Bersyukur sebab aku tahu kemampuan aku setakat tu je. Then result course keluar! I got Degree of Food Biotechnology which preferred much by my parent. Tapi serious aku cakap takde hati langsung dah kat uni lama.
Second scene
Second option is keluar result upu yang aku apply - Senibina. Punya lah aku happy show up habis habisan kat abah. Actually the reason why aku pilih architecture ni sebab aku nak cuci kaki dari uni lama apa reason pun aku tak pasti. Perangai manusia kat sana kot. Not welcoming much. Lepas have slow talk with parent, they put the trust to choose what's the best for me. Bagi aku apa yang parent restu tu yang penting. Aku ada usha blog certain orang dah went through architect life, wouldn't complete without design. Aku terfikir seni ke aku ni. Aku suka lukis but random sketching ni bukan semua. Pandai ke lukis semua pandai ke keluarkan idea. Certain plak cakap, architecture ni bukan stress more to lukis je, all the elements of nature semua kene mixed well. So tenang lah sikit bila dengar hihi.
Conclusion
Aku takut kalau aku decide based on my ego bukan based on my study. Aku dah observe sikit what lies beneath those two options lepas usha blog 'senior-senior' architecture and compare hidup aku before as ex-asasi science,
Science Stream - need to suck all the input yang lecturer ajar sekali imbas je and bagi intro je balik revise sendiri as science ni senang je. SENANG? Bagi aku silap perhitungan as aku kureng dalam kimia.
The output plak keluar semua bila on quizes and papers.
Architecture : Aku bukan student archie lagi tapi usha lah sikit blog orang then buat conclu. Ibarat belajar tu for nak tahu intsrumen and guide for project. Output dia mixed everything in nature and keluarkan semua on design.
Aku now prone to something leads to think what's around us. Aku dah penat belajar science as it's still the same. Istilah give up pun dah kicking in. I hope I can make a best decision. Actually I need someone to cultivate the spirit in me.
ITU SAJA LUAHAN HATI.
